Now if this is as good as it gets
I think a radical rethink may be required . Now this is gonna get messy . My job dissapears in about 9 months time , so I got a timescale for thinking and planning what direction to take next .Its gonna be stressful , but its also exciting. At this point I have no idea what to do , or where to do it.
One of the worst aspects of this for me is when you actually stop and look at friends and family you have to take into account in your plans , I have realised most of my friends(with a few notable exceptions) are totally self absorbed and would not notice if I burst into flames in their living rooms........ So I am starting on my preparetory feel good about yourself list.
1.Got the metabolic impasse on the run - nearly a stone down and going strong
2.Back to the gym , big time , get my fitness levels back up - mentally this makes you feel so much better
3.Give up smoking (Yes I know AGAIN , but hopefully this time it will stick).
The rest I am going to have to trust to fate for the time being , but if you feel confident and strong.......
How wrong can it go ?
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